Being Responsible

When I grew up in my home town church choir from my 6th grade, I have learned about being responsible. Even though I was not a soloist or anything, I hardly missed rehearsals and Sunday service. Especially, my home was an hour away from the church and I had to take a bus by myself to go to the church. In Korea, children can do it if you know where you are going. On Sunday, I had to leave to the church at 6:5o in the morning to get there on time for a rehearsal too. I was happy to do that.
I know, I can't insist to everyone in my choir to follow like me in here especially in different country. We all are different. I do not have problem with that reason but I have been thinking that we are somehow too much being excused especially for commitment to the Lord. The conclusion of excuses always end that God is love. He will understand. I know, He does. However, I do not think He likes that attitude.
After Easter, my chancel choir members have got loosen somehow. Also, three youth handbell made unusual excuse and did not show up when their performance day. If you think about those attitude in professional world, it is even not acceptable to talk about it. I know, I know we are volunteer group. That is why being responsible is the most valuable fact. It is all from willingness of our hearts toward the Lord. That willingness has power.
I am not sure how I can insist, teach, or guide people to be committed church musicians. I have prayed for them but it seems not enough.
If we love the Lord deeply, our priority will be for Him for sure. I need some wisdom from the Lord.

Being a runner

How can I run with my best until the end?

I have felt whenever after any big days, I become in low energy and slow down in my race. After Easter, I felt so tired and did not want to do anything else even though I could not be lazy. Spiritually also. I have tons of prayers to lift up to the Lord lately but my energy is so low. I know that we need to cool down for a while physically after some events. However, I think that we do not want to slow down for our Spiritual life cycle. I do read still the bible in the sanctuary and pray everyday but I have felt that something makes me not to closer to the Lord. That is why we need to be awake and alert in Spirit always.

I used to be a short track runner at my middle school. I used to run really fast in 100 meter track. However, I want to be a good marathon runner for my life; keep in steady speed, having a lean body which is required to be a marathon runner, and never giving up until the end. There is only one way to be a good marathon runner; fill with the Holy Spirit always!

Let's ask the Lord filling us with His Spirit!!

What wondrous love is this!

Today was the Good Friday. Because of the busy schedule at my church, I haven't spent much time to pray or read more bible to meditate about the last week of Jesus' life on earth. It is very hard to focus when there are tons of works to do to. I have felt that some degree of regret how fast this week went without having an intimate time with Jesus. Even though I sang countless hymns and listened many meditation, I should have had some time off to have a that quite time with Jesus only more. While I was sitting at the long service this afternoon, I thought about Jesus. Why does he love us that much? I still could not understand some times. We are not even that nice at all and he already knew about us but sill loves us even given up his life for us. What wondrous love is this! we don't deserve that love but He still loves us. That is why it is wondrous and mysterious. As a sinner, I may not be able to understand his love. However, I am just overwhelmed by his love. He even did not say one word saying to blame, curse, or boast on the cross. If I were him, at least I would say one thing " it is all their fault".
why do you love us this much, Jesus? why?

Welcome April!

One of poets described that April is a crucial month. As I understood the poet, April is too beautiful to be alone. Well... it might be.

It is already April 7th. I have been very busy to confront the Holy week. Especially, our Lenten cantata will present tomorrow. I haven't slept without thinking for several days. It will be great but I still could not get the whole picture. Maybe God wants me to give up that part. He is the one who controls everything not me!

Anyway, April comes to me as a color "green" always. The leaves of trees, new grass, and smell of green are definitely representing April.

I would like to be renewed like natures in April. I want to have the smell of green.

Welcome April!!