Have you felt grumpy?
I do. Especially I do feel grumpy when I am lack of sleep or physically tired.
However, I notice that even though I am lack of sleep or physically tired, I can be thankful and cheerful all the time if I am full of Holy Spirit. That is for sure!
I analysize closely my behavior and mood swings. And it is sure that it is not my good personality to be cheerful and joyful all the time. It is the Holy Spirit. I used to think that I was born with cheerful heart because I was always happy, and people liked me, as well as I did too. However, I have found out that I could not be happy (really) and cheerful without Him totally because I am a sinner. My feet run fast to go to sinful thing. My heart always wants to judge people with my own narrow minded ruler, I want to be recognized by people when I do good things, and most of all I want to compare to someone to be better or worse which is I think the most sinful nature. All those sins is rooted somehow in "comparison" fact. What if Eve did not listen to the snake that said to her " you will be like God". The snake knew our weakiest part: wanting to be better than someone. The snake used "comparison" fact to tempt Eve. If Eve thought "I am God's creation that made like Him and I am thankful to be myself", she must have not eaten the fruit. The world mostly make people to feel at least "better" or "worse" in most ways. That is from the sin. I know... it sounds a little bit too much to accept but think about very carefully why we feel unhappy. I can tell you that behind all those reason, there is root of "comparison" from unthankful heart.
That is why I try to go everyday to the dawn service in the morning to renew my heart and remember who I am, and what I need to chose to be. Because I know myself that I can't be thankful always without Him.
We make excuses with lots of reasonable reasons to be grumpy. How about Jesus? Jesus never being grumpy without sleep, no food, full of loaded working, and died on the cross without any reason to be killed. He tells us to be like Him. It is challenging for sure but I will try my best to be in Him. so I can be thankful and cheerful always whether people consider me fool or not.
