Job

The book of Job is not my favorites among the Holy Bible to read often. I was trying to find some reasons why I don't like the Book while I was reading it for my Disciple I class. I have found some interesting reasons why I don't like that much. First of all, in my deep mind, I do not like to see and get through any suffering and painful moments whether it is mine, or others. Secondly, I do not like to have arguments what so ever. I do not like to have any conflicts especially among friends. Also, I don't like to get judged like that. Third, I do not want to think about loss of children. Even though God blessed Job doubled portion and gave him prosperity, did Job forget about those sons and daughters who got killed before? At last, most interestingly, I want to justify everything clear in my knowledge in any situations or any people. However, as you know the book of Job, it is confusing and hard to understand in a number of things. In fact, the book of Job teaches us to see that we will not understand God whether we are like Job or his friends. Sometimes it is the biggiest issue for me that I try to understand everything I have faced in my certain ways. Even though I knew that I can't ever understand God's world well enough, I still try to justify them. I should just admit that I am a human who can't understand even near to what God has in mind.
There are uncountable things that we don't understand in this world. What I need to do is pray for God's mercy and grace upon us. That is only way that I nearly can be near to God. Humility is the key to go closer to God only.