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I have been anxious about things lately a lot. Even though I said "I trust in the Lord with all my heart", I still be anxious about things. Today, I had a moment for a devotion with a little book, found a good one! I would like to share in here. It is written one of my favorite writers, Philp Yancey. I hope everyone enjoy it! Why Suffer? by Philip Yancey. Read: Matthew 5:1-12 Jesus taught that the world seen from God's view point is titled in favor of the oppressed. This teaching emerges in the Sermon on the Mount and other statements of Jesus: the first will be last (Matt. 19:30; Mark 10:31; Luke 13:30), and he who humbles himself will be exalted(Luke 14:11; 18:14). But why would God single out the oppressed for special attention? 1. Suffering helps us realize our urgent need for redemption. 2. Suffering helps us experience our dependence on God and our interdependence with one another. 3. Suffering helps us distinguish between necessities and luxuries. 4. Suffereing hel...

I have failed to finish a diet program, and try to fast lately. Interestingly, when I am full filled with the Holy Spirit, I do not gain weight. But when I am down in my Spiritual life, I definitaly gain. Since this Spring, I have gain a lot in short period time. I could see how my Spiritual life is by watching my weight. I know..it sounds silly but it is true. I have been stressed and sad in circumstances at my work lately. It is part of reasons but mostly it is from deceiving feeling of contentment in my Spirit. I compromise myself with eating, and making excuses in many ways to get away from the reality. I ask myself questions this morning, " How much do I hunger and thirst for the Lord?"While listening a sermon at a radio, I agreed in every single word that we need to thirst and hunger to live God's way like we look for air to breath in every moment. We have full of food in our pantries, refridgrators, and counter tops, and waterfountains are found easily to fill our ...

God has blessed me through many people in my life from my families: parent, grandparents, cousins, and so on to friends. Especially, God has sent me wonderful father figure people around me always. God knows how close my dad and I was. After my dad passed away, th emost I miss is his smile which towards me based on unshakable love. I could see the smile through my husband's face when he looks at my girls. On the other hand, God provides someone who I could ask good advices, helps, and prayers without hesitation. One of them is Rev. Bill. I have only known him for less than three years but he is like my dad. Even though there was not much time to know him, he has been a strong leader, boss, and supporter for me. Whatever I brought up, he has always been supportive and given a good thoughts and prayers. However, he is leaving soon to retire and I have been sad with a sort of separation anxieity: I even keep dreaming of the last day of his service at our church. Even though I know tha...

Last Sunday, I and my girls made a rule for making Sunday more Holy and focused by not using any technologies such as computer, TV, I-Pod, or DS for a day, Sunday. When I had a moment of a daily devoition on last Sunday morning, the thought just occured to me, and I shared with the girls. I have found that my girls stay with either computer or I-Pod for long period of time at home lately as well as my husband, and myself. Bad parts of spending time with the machines is losing time to connect to someone else. The machines occupy people's mind and time. Last Sunday was not easy for me especially to survive without those machines especially. The girls went to their friends house for sleep over, and my husband went to his church retreat. I was by myself for whole day and night. Interesting thing was I spent more hours of reading, napping, and cleaning than usual. Of course, my mind was clearer than anytime. I think we become addicted to these technologies without conscious. If we stick...

Because of high technology, we are living systems of "wireless". I do still remember when I had first time a wireless phone at home. I was amazed how the phone worked. It has accelerated to remote controls, cell phones, wireless mouse, and wireless internet services and so on. It certainly is convienence for sure, especially wireless frees limitation in spaces. I have thought about our lives with God. It is truly wireless. However, there is an invisible line between Him and us. Interesting part is we often can't find out whether it is connected or not. Like, interent wireless service, we have to have a signal which shows ability for the service. Even though the computer is new and expensive, we can't get a service without the signal. It is like the Holy Spirit. If we do not have the Spirit, we hardly get the service. We sometimes get cheated by ourselves by great looking outside. God's wireless service is eternal, unlimited, and runs by grace. When I woke up middl...

What a beautiful Spring! The weather has been gorgeous lately. The trees have new leaves and the grass turned green again like a magic. It amazes me that nature is always faithful whether the previous winter was harshly cold or not. I have had a pot of amaryllis for several years. It blooms regardless if we were in Bloomington, IN or in Richmond Hill. However, I totally forgot to put the pot insede during this last bitter winter. It seemed totally dried and frozen dead when I found it last month. I felt guilty that I neglected it. After we came back from our spring break trip to Indiana, Joanne screamed out loud "Mom! Mom! come here!"Guess what happened! Three amaryllis flowers were already blooming beautifully. I could not believe how it survived. I had felt so much shame that one day I threw the pot away into the trash cane, and neglected it. However, it was right under a sunny spot. God took care of it no matter what- with sun and rain! I have learned several things throug...

Lately, my girls have been into buying some necklace, bracelet, or some accessories with best friends forever written to give to their friends. I have thought about my bff :best friend forever. I have had many friends, and it has been a true blessing to have them in my life. However, I am not sure who I can call as my B.F.F. In Korea, old people said if we find a friend who we can trust to ask take care of my family without feeling any sorry or doubt when we are in danger, we can tell that we live a pretty good life. What if I am sick and will die soon, do I have someone to ask take care of my lovely girls without doubt? I am not sure. When I was in elementary school, teachers asked students always who was our best friend. The teachers made a note to each kid whom is their best friend. Interestingly, I usually could not write one single name for my best friend. However, my name was written a lot in my friends' best friend line. My teacher asked me personally one day about it. I to...