Yoon's musical note

My Joanne had her tonsil remove surgery last Tuesday. Even though the surgery is considered as safe and easy, it was not that easy on me. I never put my children to any surgeries before so it was a anxious moment for me. I can tell that I am a brave person who am not afraid of being cut, or poked but I am a very weak person who am afraid of seeing her child being cut or poked for sure. The anxiety was not from my lack of faith. It was matter of denial of my parentship. I had a moment to give up on my parentshipe to God totally when Christine was born. I had 45 hours of labor with her, ended up having C section. Not only that, right after the birth, I had a deep postpartum depression. I was worried totally about how I can keep the fragile new born baby in safe. One thing was surely helping me a lot to get rid of the fear and worries was prayer. Through the prayer, I could see who is the Ruler and King, so I could give up on the parentshood over the baby with faith. However, I did not ha...

I do not like a word, "indulge". Well.. it may be because of my lack of understanding American culture, or English itself. However, I do not like the word. The word gives me negative image of powerless Christians. I have thought about how to live as a good Christian in this world, found several causes to make believers powerless. One of them is this self indulgent. I think that it is easy to compromise between indulgent and acceptance. We compromise to make things easy on ourselves in every single moment in our daily life; making reasonable excuses, being comfortable, being easy and so on. For me, it is a true challenge to discern and not to judge in many occasions. For example, people do not come to church on Sunday because it is cold, they are tired, and somewhere to go and so on. They send me e-mails or leave messages to let me know why they missed worship service. I usually respond that I miss them and hopefully they are coming back next time. However, I honestly feel ver...

God has given me a new motto in 2010: " Grow in God's Spirit, and bear fruitful!" I pray that I grow more in His Spirit to not only deeper my knowledge to know Him, but also bear fruits of His Spirit to glorify Him throughout my life. In Colossians Paul prayed for people in Colosse that " ...we have not stopping praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the king of light." (Colossians 1:9-12) I am very excited to start 2010 to observe how He will lead me. I will continue to have intimate time wi...

It is already Dec. 26th today. I was so busy that could not stay in front of my computer to update my blog! Also, one of reasons is poor service of our internet connection at my office. It has been very busy but a special and blessed month for sure. We had the service of Lessons and Carols with eight different groups involved to lift up our heart to our New Born King. I loved the worship service myself. Not because of how music or other group performed but because I could worship Him and feel people's hearts to God. I prayed a lot for the service that God may bring the lost even one to the worship service and had gotten confidence that God did even though I did not know who they were. Emmanuel, God is with us, is miracle and grace. How could God come to us! As Philppians 2;5-11." Jesus made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, and he humbled himself, and became obedient to death, even death ...

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. (1 Peter 4:8) After a long period of time with 1 Corinthian 13, this verse from 1 Peter has been recited in my heart all day long. I have been praying to ask God what He wants me to do and there have been answers with general acts such as "praying or reading the Holy bible" or specific actions such as giving a certain book to someone, or calling a friend and so on. Beyond all those answers, God has been strongly telling to me one thing is "Love others deeply!" I am not sure exactly how love covers a multitude of sins. But, I do know that Jesus did it on the cross for us. I can't love like Jesus does by myself but Jesus promised me that He will be with me until the end. It means that He will lead and help me to love others with His heart. What can I say more than obey? Even though there are a number of people who make my heart aches, I will pray and love them anyway because He tells ...

It has been for over a month now that God has waken me up around 3:00 or 4:00 regularly with a song, or words in my hearts. Amazingly, I haven't been tired at all, but I have felt more energeric with deep peace. I have enjoyed so much this date with God in the early mornings, and am afraid of what if I forget this intimate time with God in the future. When I started a month ago, I was desperated to know what God wanted me to do in that situation. I still haven't heard anything as an answer but keep hearing the same message that "Seeking Kingdome of God and His righteousness" and Keep praying in His Spirit no matter what. So, what I can I do more except obey to what He tells me to do everyday? Only thing...is "prayer". That is the reason that I wake up early. Even though it has been more than month now, I wake up with great excitment and expectation for the Lord every single morning. It has been just undescribly precious. More than fifteen years ago before I ...

I had a chance to attend revival services over the last weekend at a Korean Church in Savannah. There were five times services with three hour long each time from Friday night to Sunday night. A main focus was about the evangelism why and how we need to spread the Gospel. The speaker also focused on “seeking God’s kingdom and His righteousness”. I was fully challenged and encouraged with the speaker’s messages. One of suggestions about how to spread the Gospel got my attention. It was a simple phrase “do you believe in Jesus?” to find out whether they are Christians or not when we try to spread the Gospel. I asked the question to myself. “Do you believe in Jesus, Yoon?” of course, I said “Yes”. And after I heard a sermon at the second service on last Sunday, I asked further questions based on “believing in Jesus” to myself. If I believe in Jesus that He redeemed me with His precious blood on the cross, do I believe in Jesus that He answers our prayer every single one? I said “yes” ...