Yoon's musical note

What really means that you know something about it? Today's Rev. Bill's sermon reminded me a conversation with one of my friends. We shared one day about this real meaning of "knowing". We say lots of times " I know that". However, I question myself "do I really know it?" For example, if I know about that we need to exercises for our health, but do not exercise , it means I do not know the meaning exactly. Do you get my point? If we know something but not believe or follow it, it is not truly known by us. As same thing, we know that God loves us deeply and forever. However, we doubt and act like we do not know. It means that we really do not know. We can't say we know about it unless we truly act on it. It is tricky to explain but somehow true. I think that I assume that I know stuff but really.... I do not know them well enough to follow as knowledge. I have thought about it since this morning, what if I do everything what I say I know truly...

I can't believe that it is already May!!! I love May. In Korea, May is the most beautiful season of all. All the festivals are held in May and lots of people get married too. Also, there are children's day on 5th, and parents' day on 8th. Also, Teacher's day is on 15th. Children get a special present from their parents and schools and it is a holiday. We give a carnation corsage for our parents on Parents' day. All parents wear the corsage on their left chest. I used to make them for my parents and grandparents. I remember that my dad wore them proudly to his work at the university. We also give the same corsage to our teachers on 15th. We consider our teachers as our parents. We give our respect. I still send a card to my teachers on that day. I miss them so much!! I will make a beautiful corsage for my mom this year. I am so happy that she is here in May. Having a mom is the best feeling of being loved ever. I am just so thankful that I have had great parents and ...

When I grew up in my home town church choir from my 6th grade, I have learned about being responsible. Even though I was not a soloist or anything, I hardly missed rehearsals and Sunday service. Especially, my home was an hour away from the church and I had to take a bus by myself to go to the church. In Korea, children can do it if you know where you are going. On Sunday, I had to leave to the church at 6:5o in the morning to get there on time for a rehearsal too. I was happy to do that. I know, I can't insist to everyone in my choir to follow like me in here especially in different country. We all are different. I do not have problem with that reason but I have been thinking that we are somehow too much being excused especially for commitment to the Lord. The conclusion of excuses always end that God is love. He will understand. I know, He does. However, I do not think He likes that attitude. After Easter, my chancel choir members have got loosen somehow. Also, three youth handbe...

How can I run with my best until the end? I have felt whenever after any big days, I become in low energy and slow down in my race. After Easter, I felt so tired and did not want to do anything else even though I could not be lazy. Spiritually also. I have tons of prayers to lift up to the Lord lately but my energy is so low. I know that we need to cool down for a while physically after some events. However, I think that we do not want to slow down for our Spiritual life cycle. I do read still the bible in the sanctuary and pray everyday but I have felt that something makes me not to closer to the Lord. That is why we need to be awake and alert in Spirit always. I used to be a short track runner at my middle school. I used to run really fast in 100 meter track. However, I want to be a good marathon runner for my life; keep in steady speed, having a lean body which is required to be a marathon runner, and never giving up until the end. There is only one way to be a good marathon runner;...

Today was the Good Friday. Because of the busy schedule at my church, I haven't spent much time to pray or read more bible to meditate about the last week of Jesus' life on earth. It is very hard to focus when there are tons of works to do to. I have felt that some degree of regret how fast this week went without having an intimate time with Jesus. Even though I sang countless hymns and listened many meditation, I should have had some time off to have a that quite time with Jesus only more. While I was sitting at the long service this afternoon, I thought about Jesus. Why does he love us that much? I still could not understand some times. We are not even that nice at all and he already knew about us but sill loves us even given up his life for us. What wondrous love is this! we don't deserve that love but He still loves us. That is why it is wondrous and mysterious. As a sinner, I may not be able to understand his love. However, I am just overwhelmed by his love. He even d...

One of poets described that April is a crucial month. As I understood the poet, April is too beautiful to be alone. Well... it might be. It is already April 7th. I have been very busy to confront the Holy week. Especially, our Lenten cantata will present tomorrow. I haven't slept without thinking for several days. It will be great but I still could not get the whole picture. Maybe God wants me to give up that part. He is the one who controls everything not me! Anyway, April comes to me as a color "green" always. The leaves of trees, new grass, and smell of green are definitely representing April. I would like to be renewed like natures in April. I want to have the smell of green. Welcome April!!

There are only two weeks left until Easter. I have been spending lots of time lately to think about our Lenten cantata. God gave me a strong word or theme for the cantata; "forgiveness." I don't know why and what I need to do for that. However, whenever I have tried to avoid the word, God has made me sure that I am following His word. He must have planned that He would like to see the people who have been problem with forgiveness. I honestly don't have problem with anyone yet what that I know of. Because Jesus died for us, our sins are forgiven eternally. I do not know what to make people to forgive each other except prayers. I don't know what God wants. I do know that He does not accept or forgive us unless we forgive ourselves for sure. I am still struggling what to do following the cantata, but praying that God shows me vivid image what I need to do. Would you like to pray with me for the Cantata night? I have felt very urgent that He has called people for forg...