Yoon's musical note

It is already one and half years since we moved down to Richmond Hill from Bloomington , IN. However, I have feeling strange still sometimes. My girls had difficult time to adjust last year and I thought they are settled more in this "adjusting" period. However, I became a little worried after I had a moment with my Christine last night. She asked suddenly in out of blue, " mom, are there any Korean around here nearby?" I asked "Why". " I have been feeling lonely and left out". I immediately questioned"Where? from whom?" She did not answer me but shared that she misses her Korean friends in Indiana. I have felt very guilty that I neglected that area of their lives. I have been praying for their good adjustment, friendship, and being focused in school works. However, I never thought that they miss so called "Korean friends". It might have been from my belief that they are Korean- american , they are not totally Korean like me. ...

When I found out that I got pregnant with Joanne, I was not happy. I was ready to go back to my doctoral program after two years of break with my Christine. I confessed my un -grateful heart about the baby and accepted the gift, Joanne. It was harder with so many ways than Christine's time. Because Jason was taking full time classes, working at school and it led us limited in several ways, especially financially. I could not eat well with Joanne somehow and could not afford to buy special food for my craving either. So, I had to keep my craving down with ramen noodles for all most everyday. I do remember still. However, I went to the dawn prayer service at the Korean UMC every morning. Somehow, I was not sad or depressed because of lack of many things but instead I was very content. Especially, when I had Joanne at the hospital, I was very grateful. My mom could not come to help me out because of my dad who was seriously ill when I had the baby. So Jason had to take care of Christi...

Happy Valentine! Wishing you all are surrounded by love, joy, and peace especially from above!!

Lately I have been enjoying reading a book "What's so Amazing about Grace?" by Philip Yancey. I read the book in Korean a long time ago but I have surprised how different it is in English. Also, I have been amazed how Philip Yancey wrote so lively in expression in every single words he used. I wish I can have that talent! However, I have to keep my dictionary nearby because there are tons of words which I do not know. He certainly used many colorful and unusual vocabularies. Even though it has taken more than easy books to finish reading even for one chapter, I really have enjoyed reading it every day. The book has been leading me in deep thoughts that I have been struggling to find "answer" lately. I truly agree many many ways in this book, and it has made me many times of crying while I am reading the book. I was longing for answers for how I can be the best but the most humble person, how I can be sensitive to the Holy Spirit, but not judgemental? How can I ...

Today is my dad's memorial day. He passed away six years ago. I can't believe that how long it has been. I can't express how much I miss him. I could not be with him when he left to heaven. In Korean custom, it is one of impiety ways to parents that a child misses the moment when parents pass away. Unfortunately, I was one of them. I could go earlier to see him in Korea but he told me on the phone not to come yet two days before he left. I was worried and even changed my ticket to Tuesday from Thursday, however, he passed away on Monday. Somehow, I believe that he did not want me to see him leaving. However, I regretted for a long time that I should have gone earlier to say bye to him. I could not mourn loudly enough at that time because of my young children. However, whenever I misses him, I could not stop crying still. I was very blessed to have both wonderful mom and dad. Even though my dad never liked me to study music, he was the closest, and best friend. I miss his la...

I love February even though I actually love every month. When I was in young age, February meant "preparation for the new semester". In Korea, the school semester begins from March like September in the State. We had a long winter break from a middle of December to beginning of February, and had another break one week after until March 1st. March 2nd is still the first day of any school. So, during the break right before March, we went to department stores to get new note books, pencils, backpacks and so on. The weather is still bitter in February but we can smell coming of Spring once in a while in the air, and pile of snow started melting with sunshine in February. My hearts used to be pounding for exciting for the coming month and season. After I got married to my husband and had my second child, Joanne, February came to me differently. Both of their birthdays are in this month as a day apart. Also, we usually settle down in February fever after Holiday and a New year. Mos...